When Do You Say It’s Over

In a movie, you’ll know that it is over when the credits roll on the screen. In life, when do you say that the chance presented to you is finally over, gone and will never come back the second time around?

Everyday, chances and opportunities come up. There are chances we choose to ignore but there are chances that, no matter how risky they are, we continue to pursue anticipating failure yet hoping failure won’t come. What force can drive you to continue holding on to that chance?

When the signs of failure start to show, would you easily accept the fact that it is over? Or, would you still try to work it out, hoping it will be a success and worth the risks you’ve taken?

Contradictions? Questions?

Where are the answers?

Real life feelings, I guess.

Letting Go Versus Setting Free

1. LETTING GO when you realize that love didn’t exist after all
SETTING FREE when you love him and for special reasons, you sacrifice
2. LETTING GO when you are tired of his crazy ideas and his personality
SETTING FREE when he is tired of you
3. LETTING GO for unclear reasons, invalid ones and the unknown
SETTING FREE for valid unselfish reasons
4. LETTING GO when he goes just because you said so
SETTING FREE when he uses his freedom to choose where to stay- where he thinks he’s free
5. LETTING GO when he’s gone forever
SETTING FREE when you’ll wait for him
6. LETTING GO for someone you thought you love
SETTING FREE for someone you love and will always love for the rest of your life
7. LETTING GO asks, “Will this make me feel better?”
SETTING FREE asks, “Will this make her feel better?”
8. LETTING GO is taking adjustment into consideration
SETTING FREE is taking recovery into consideration
9. LETTING GO is the beginning of a new life
SETTING FREE is the beginning of a new life in a new world
10. LETTING GO is asking yourself, “How will I get used to this?”
SETTING FREE is asking yourself, “How will I ever get through this?”
11. LETTING GO is foregoing someone who has been a part of your life
SETTING FREE is foregoing someone who has been your life
12. LETTING GO is letting someone walk out or your life with arms wide open
SETTING FREE is letting someone walk out of your life with eyes wide shut

Source: Ladee Rainmaker

Break Time

I’ve been trying to fall asleep on my chair using my pillow to block out the light just so I could stop thinking until I got tired trying. I stand up and went out yet it was too hot outside watching the speeding cars on the street. I wonder why there’s no traffic at this time of the day.

There! The questions are there again, like popcorns that keep popping.  I don’t even have time to answer the first one before the next train of thought comes.  Maybe, our minds are like that of children, a factory of questions. Only, we try to ignore some because we are too busy with our everyday life. If I write down some of the questions, I might have answers in some future time so here are some of them. Maybe, you could help me out.

I miss you.

Do you say you miss a person because you love that person? Or is it the physical intimacy that you’ve previously shared that you miss? If there was no physical intimacy, would you miss her/him?

Please don’t go away.

Is going away one way of saying goodbye? What are we afraid of? Are we afraid that once they’re gone, they might forget us? Or are we afraid of our own self, forgetting what we felt for them and not keeping our promise of staying in love even if we’re far apart.

Meeting.

Why do we want to see each other always? Is it because we love that person and really want to be with them? Or are we afraid that if we don’t meet often, they might find someone else to fall in love with? Or are we afraid of our own self that we might fall out of love and find someone else to fall in love, thus, breaking our promises?

I love you.

Why do we keep reminding the persons we love that we love them and that we miss them? Is it because we are afraid they might forget that we do love them and might find other persons to love more than they loved us? Or are we just reminding ourselves that these are the persons we love and that we must not forget that we love them.

Happiness.

How do we measure happiness? Is it by counting the material things we possess, the number of friends we have, the places we’ve traveled, the positions we have?  Can we really measure happiness? When can we say we are truly happy with our own lives?

Writing down some thoughts is kind of liberating sometimes and I have not done that much writing on this blog and the other blogs for sometime. I need to find more inspiration from both the outside and the virtual world.

In Silence

The silence is deafening when one can’t find the right words to say
Or just too stubborn to voice them out loud.
Is it pride or cowardice?
It is hard to say but can be both.
Just let the time pass by and handle the future on its own
Though what passed by won’t come back anymore
Glad there was silence to keep me sane.

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Wish It Will Rain

[This was supposed to be published last summer. Unfortunately, it remained as draft until now so bear with me. :)]

Summer comes and leaves turned into golden red
Soon, these leaves will play with the wind
As they fall on the ground

I looked for you
I hear laughter all around
But you are nowhere to be found

Summer’s here but I am wishing for the rain
So that under the umbrella
I can hide the pain

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